Dear Daisaku,

Hi! Thank you for being your wonderful self. I have not written to you in a while. I've been suffering so greatly off and on.  I've Been spreading the teachings of the Mystic Law as much as possible. The struggle of paying rent and living costs here in Northern California have overwhelmed me.

We think that the proliferation of wireless networks, microwave towers, cell phones, routers, etc. are affecting people in a hugely negative way. I wish I could hold this responsible for my behavior over the last six years especially when it comes to my personal relationships with my girlfriends. My heart aches from my last break up with M. She and a friend D both received Gohonzon and have not been practicing. 

I feel betrayed, but perhaps it is I who have betrayed them. Self medicating with alcohol and marijuana or even medicines appropriate to my supposed "condition" have not led me to the life I wish.

I hope to  become a truly great person filled with the virtues of positivity noted on my Lotus drawing. June 24th I will be 33 years old. I'm surprised how good it feels to write to you. I feel like I can say anything, even though, I feel like the translators might not like me or that my other letters have not reached you. I don't care at the moment. I'm glad you're there and there are millions of people who wish to meet you and be received in some way by you. 

I love Nichiren and everything for which SGI stands. It is hard to imagine living up to your consistancy. I've been worried about my homeland America. Many times I have wished to flee this place, yet there is really nowhere to go and I've tryed to leave before.

Oftentimes I feel that I do not relate to this tighty whitey divide and rule system of the West that prevails. I feel that food, fruit trees and all should be free and abundant so that people can learn the magical qualities of their own talents and not worry about paying their brothers and sisters for the rising costs of everything. 

Real Estate rises in cost out of reach of the young people. So many problems in this world. I continue to do bodywork and massage for a living. I wonder how you would respond to my work. I would probably be a little nervous if I got the chance to give you my best healing and massage work.

I wonder if you would accept me. I wonder if you feel I need admonishment. Toda seems like such a great man. I don't know if my emotions could stand up under a force like his. Largely I want everyone to like me, yet practicing Nichiren Buddhism assures one of certain persecutions on levels appropriate.

Well, I need to go find some lunch. My friend, Frontier member K, suggested that I send my CDs to you, so here goes.

Thank you for making this world a better place.  I love your book Life: An enigma A precious Jewel.

I'm enjoying Volume V -Wisdom of the Lotus Sutra

love and light,

Nam Myoho Renge Kyo

Ellis Simpson Byers III

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